tired of everything

i'm sick of having this fucking stupid feeling.

depression

I'm lonely. No one is here for me. I  feel like I don't have any friend. AT ALL. Wow, this is really depressing. Will someone be my friend? anyone?

I FAILED AGAIN

Yesterday I presented about My Dream Vacation and it didn't went well. The time limit was 3 minutes and I barely survived the first 60 seconds but i think I managed to say what I wanna say, I guess. Even Madam said it was too short. I blame my nervousness(is it even a word? i should check it in the dictionary). Well, I'll be presenting again next week. It's a book review. I read but I don't really quite know how to present it and make the others feels like they need to read the book bcuz the book is awesome. I might do a review about one of John Green's books maybe. Wish me luck guys although I don't know who will read this.

Today's quote from Madam Yati

"Success is 99% mistakes" 

The mistake I made today is to create a better me tomorrow. I hope so.

I haven't told about the others's presentation. They were good. I was and still am in awe because of the amazing places I never think about. I save all the presentations. It will be my travelling checklist.

That's all for now.

xx Sabrina

Live Your Dream

Ambition, Dreams.. We all have dreams. We all have something we want to be in the future.

When we were six, our mom decided what we’re going to be in the future e.g; doctor. As you grew up, it changed. As for example, me, myself. When I was in primary school, I want to be a doctor. When I turned 14, I want to be something different from others. I want to be an archeologist. As I turned 16, it changed again. I want to be a doctor (back to what I wanna be when I was 6) but then I realized, I can’t open up someone’s body, or maybe look at their bleeding body. It will be freaking disturbing my mind. So I decided to be a dentist. It doesn’t involve too many blood, I guess. But now, I’m 18, I don’t have anything in mind. I don’t know what I wanna be. Well, maybe I have one because when people asked me “what do you want to be?” I answered “I want to be rich. Anything that can make me loads of money”.

And I realized, life is not only about our dreams. It is about how we do to survive in this world. Well, some people manage to survive by living their dream. Have you guys think about your future? I don’t know who will read this and answer this question but if anyone came across this blog and read this post, ask yourself. What are you going to be in the future? 

p/s; I actually love culinary art. I love baking but my mom against it so I guess I should just pick any course that is seem to be professional and can make a lot of money so that my mom won’t complain anything about it. An advice for everyone: anything that you guys want to be, live it. live your dream. Do not make others be a shield between you and your dreams.